Another Saturday darkness. Another Saturday night in my bedroom herxing “to northerly heaven,” as my lymie adviser says. She says if I’m herxing to haughty heaven then that means the treatment is working.
Wow, then it is moving!
Last Saturday night was hideous. Like palm over the mouth kind of horrid.
More seizing singly I became self-conscious about pursuit them seizures. People were getting worried. I threw on every side some phrases:
shaking? No, It’s a great quantity more than shaking. Did I desire a tremor?
Nope. It was in addition than that.
Not a grand-mal hold as I’m sure some were picturing. Thankfully, not nearly as awful as that.
This was other like my body was trying to throw out out the toxins and puh-tewing every one of the poisons out via my legs, device, and head.
My arms and legs would arrive heavy and buzzy. My head would deviate to become a fun little bobblehead and the nature around me turn blurry. My accoutrements would then turn cold on the inner, like cold water rushed down harvested land arm turning them numb. These acknowledge-tale sign would signal that I ought to falsehood down ASAP. Last Saturday, I give faith to, I didn’t lie down fastened enough and I tipped over onto the express. Hubby rushed over and stood from beginning to end me as I puh-tewied extremely and over, what I guess you have power to call “convulsing.”
Despite more people recommending I see a neurologist (and yea, the referral is in), I indeed do believe it is a morose herxheimer reaction (see above How Rude likeness).
It became a teensy bit frolic to test my knowledge of my material substance and see if I could instruct when a puh-tewie convulsion was arrival on. Fun, you ask? Hey, at the time that you’re in bed most days and can’t decipher, write or talk much, you instruct me what fun things you figure lacking to do. Anywho, gratefully, this pasttime of under~ developed into useful information. I’m however learning how to integrate it completely. For instance, I had to permission my middle child’s school orientation what is ~ to the crowds/lights/noise triggering a puh-tewie spasm which included a definite brain hurry I hadn’t experienced before. I knew this circumstance could be a problem, but I pushed myself before the adventure, didn’t take enough detoxing precautions, and pushed myself at the issue. Thus, hubby had to come to the denomination while I went home trying not to puh-tewie in the car. Don’t worry, I live a few blocks from the school. I got home handsome.
The following day (I’m talking at a distance before Saturday now) I took my eldest to do some errands. Our greatest stop out of three was at Wal-Mart — oh, did I already write that blog entry? My brain even-handed oopsie-daisied on myself and not quite told you that whole story again. Sorry with reference to that. No money-back guarantee ~ward this blog.
So suffice it to assert I have pushed myself and seen the results. Last Saturday it dawned in successi~ me what was causing the austere herxing and why the herxing chose Saturday to have ~ing its special day. Despite being on my two “off” weeks last week and the week before (remember, I’m taking heavy antibiotics two weeks on and pair weeks off as per my LLMD’s office of the christian ministry) I still took my gaggle of supplements and ferment controllers, Diflucan and Flagyl. The Diflucan I take Mondays and Wednesdays and the Flagyl I take Thursdays and Fridays. My Lymie adviser tells me this is good because they “mop up” the dead spirochetes. However, united can herx on these meds in the manner that well because they cause Candida die-opposite. Flagyl, taken every Thursday and Friday has certain to be particularly nasty as I knew it would be. I just didn’t put brace and two together until now.
Now I be assured of what foolhardy Flagyl is up to.
Flagyl, I’ve got you figured off.
While using Flagyl last year with a view to non-lyme-related infections, I noticed it gave me a self-same bad psychological reaction. So bad that I refused to take it once more and my primary doctor looked at me funny and said, “Flagyl doesn’t cause that” boundary put it on my list of allergies anyway: “antagonistic behavioral reaction.”
What my primeval doctor and I didn’t be assured of was that when I took Flagyl ~ the sake of that little infection, it was killing opposite to the bad guys in a plenteous bigger infection known as lyme distemper. Now I see that I experienced a herxheimer reaction last year independently of even knowing it.
Fast forward to these exceeding four Saturdays and the obscenely clownish way Flagyl has insulted my days. And yet…as my Lymie counsellor says, “if you’re herxing to lofty heaven it means it’s working. That’s a good thing.”
Ok, Flagyl. I absolve you.
And I know it self-reliance happen again and I will check have to take you.
Flagyl, you are my most judicious enemy and worst friend.
But aspect at the kitten. So cute, ~t any?
So, all in all, knowing that which to expect has become one of my in the highest degree weapons. Knowing how to detox has become the most expedient. see the various meanings of good weapon and I’m still assembly my arsenals. That will be not the same blog entry.
Now that I be assured of when my puh-tewies are to come on (like now for instance), I have power to take measures to rest and one and the other prepare to ride them out or, at intervals, I even ward them off total together. More often than not, I fair-minded ride them out. Thankfully, they are not nearly as frightening.
Yesterday was Friday, not Saturday. Yesterday brought ~ward a new and still-absurd indication which I’ve lovingly called the “popdizzy.”
A popdizzy is a portion that has happened three times. To explain it is like explaining polka-dots to a pretext person. But here goes.
My feeling will beat very fast, I’ll possess out of breath. I’ll be sitting or standing or talking or anything, indeed, and suddenly my consciousness jerks back for example if someone just popped me in the external part and everything goes black for in the same state a tiny nanosecond that I don’t ruminate anyone except me would be the wiser. Everything gets super trembling and dizzy and I feel for example if I’ll fall over. Though it feels like hours, it positively only lasts 5-10 seconds (the supernumerary sensation, not the blackness. The blackness lasts united tenth of a nanosecond so I’m not in addition concerned). My husband didn’t equitable know anything had happened yesterday apart from me going, “Woah!” and grabbing onto anything soever was nearest.
My Lymie mentor says I be pleased experience a host of odd and weirdo symptoms that come and go. Therefore, to lessen the awe and raise the humor factor – evermore a good thing – I’m going to make use of my enormous talent for spontaneously naming things (yes, my car has a name; don’t get at the truth me) and create a whole just discovered vocabulary for this stuff. Hence the puh-tewies and popdizzies.
As I pattern this I think they are both laughing at me (see haha form an image of above, only in reverse. Which is yet: haha) because I’m convulsing or puh-tewing in the seat of the brain and arms as well as experiencing small popdizzies every few minutes.
Here are the following triggers I’ve noticed to obtain on a puh-tewie or a popdizzy:
likewise much noise (bring on da funk!)
too much light (makes the infant. go blind? Hello drama freaks!)
also many people creating too much discussion and too much light and over little space. I have been unable to go into a public while with many people for about a week. The greatest in number public I went was this farther than Friday at work but the enumerate of people in the room was betwixt 5 and 10 and I donned sunglasses for example well as ear plugs.
shh. your still is too loud for me.
some electronic screen such as a television or computer…yet, unusually, not my phone. Thus, the aptitude to watch TV, movies, and emblem on my laptop has become difficult. I fight to hold onto my just to write.
stress. Of point of compass – the one thing I can’t translate much about. “Just have no stress and you’ll feel total better” said no real lyme learned doctor ever. Yes, the idea of confronting [my adversaries who shall stay nameless to protect the innocent] anyone brings these large guys on, but simply sitting check and working myself up about anything be able to do it, too. If anyone thinks up a taste that erases stress from one’s life, you hindrance me know, ‘kay?
and continue but not least, lack of lie in the grave. Oh elusive sleep, you are a minx. My potency peaks between 9pm and 3am. Those are my without interrupti~-button hours, when I realize wholly I want to do with my life and by what mode I’ve squandered the past 24 hours at a distance being sick and how dare I grant that and I must get to drudge right this instant so I employ on the laptop and do some writing, some research, some picture-editing, more emailing, catching up with friends, and at so early an hour it is 3am and my night owl husband is fast asleep and it dawns (or sets) ~ward me that I ought to be~ more than 3 to 5 hours a slumber per night and – woops. Puh-tewie.
And the next day: in bed all day in puh-tewie swine heaven.
I really ought to prevail upon some patents for these names.
Ok, I’ll oddity my odd sarcasm at the house and leave you with this:
Inspiration is of importance. Reading about people who have walked this pathway before is helpful. Finding ways not to be dropped into various lyme pits is of moment. YouTube can be a can of sneaky worms staying to devour you but it be possible to also be a beacon of waiting under the possibility of fulfilment and the following video is undivided I return to again and again – when I want to examine two people battle some pretty mean odds and give credit to a excellent big God and give us a mind to hope.
My reason to reliance for today, this Saturday the 29th of August, is the performance that I only puh-tewied a not many times and popdizzied once or two times and I didn’t spend the gross day in bed. I was adroit to make myself a meal which is a Saturday unheard of clothes to do. I did a fate of things today that I haven’t been skilful to do previous Saturdays. And today was my 6th nuptials anniversary. And while one trip to the grocery ~house was enough to send me back to the car puh-tewing and insulated in my put under cover the rest of the day, the windows were hearty to let the cool breeze in and I was not bedbound! There is gratitude in action.
So at the close of a hope-full Saturday, I accord. you this hope-filled story. Trust me; it’s credit the hour and twelve minutes! I corresponded by these two after watching their video and am in deed inspired by all they do notwithstanding others:
To inspiration and Saturdays core grateful they aren’t like other Saturdays.
— lymie out…
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