Posted in Flagyl on October 23, 2015

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Today is “Day 64″… sixty four days ~ne we hit a brick wall. (Thankfully, it was not a literal brick wall.) It certainly stopped us dead in our tracks. We were in the way that very excited to be re-united by Brynna and be on US defile and serving in a church – a just discovered Faith Family, but things quickly and abruptly came to a thorough stop. We hadn’t even been in Texas for a week! ALL of the days of September 2015 in our NEW selfish world were deep, dark, desperate days and the Lord had a lump to teach us in that flaw. There were many, many moments when one, two or all three of us “felt like” giving up… ~ward life. Thankfully we are not a group of genera who lives on feelings. We live in c~tinuance the Truth. Jesus, only Jesus.  I’ll spare you every single detail, but try to bestow you enough of the picture to be informed where we’ve been and wherefore we’ve been so quiet.

On August 3rd we returned to the states. On August 8th our son, Josiah was connubial. On August 12th we began our two day journey in a UHaul and our pristine grey truck to our new home in Texas to act with Friendswood Community Church. We were incompetent to secure housing of our be in possession of and made a “deal” with a Haiti team head from our new church to live by her for a few months. Her person is Myra and she’s honestly the BEST of everything. She opened up her stain new, gorgeous home and is allowing us to possess the entire second floor. She gave us through half the pantry to put our provender and cleaned out the entire fridge to such a degree that we can put our perishables in it. (She uses a fridge in the garage.) We be able to never, ever explain how grateful we are or in what manner welcomed we have felt by her to this of the present day life. She is an amazing bodily form who passionately serves others who are struggling in the universe. 

When we arrived in Texas we were generously given a week of vacation and a week at the shore house of another FCC Haiti team member and his family. Our pastor(s) wanted us to subsist fully rested before we jumped in to this of recent origin ministry and boy were we felicitous to take a week for ourselves and to re-trim to life in the US. In the middle of the week and the something intermediate of the night something huge changed us prepetually.

What we call “Day One” happened little dab in the middle of the vacation week at the beach. On August 19, 2015 – Chris woke up in severe, agonizing pain. This pain was that cannot be borne. It kept him from sleeping, corroding, or really doing anything much other than fatiguing to cope. Brynna and I felt completely imbecile. We just didn’t know what to do or think. He had been diseased back in March in Haiti and sooner or later we returned in April and he had proof after test where the specialist concluded he had operative H-Pylori bacteria in his digestive footmark. When we returned to Haiti in May he was distress many prescriptions. Two of which were anti-biotics to forbear flush out the bad bacteria in his visible form. They were Cipro and Flagyl.

That August death at the beach we didn’t perceive what to think. He had fine much gotten back to “normal” of the same kind with the summer progressed in Haiti. But that ignorance the sharp, intense pain sent our minds racing. He went to the ER, Urgent Care and eventually a specialist. (Not every one of in one night.) The doctors did their “furniture” but still half of the pang remained after two weeks. And it was not ending. And I mean never. Ending. Ever. He was prescribed sundry pain relievers that did nothing unless knock him out or loopy with equal rea~n that he wasn’t completely “with it”. He took perkiset, valium, oxy-this and oxy-that, flexerill and up~ the body and on and on. He was in dolor 24 hours a day for uncorrupt over two weeks. The specialist in addition prescribed Cipro and Flagyl because he believed there may be an abscess that needed more help.

On August 30 Chris surpassingly suddenly felt a very deep and extreme depression. We called the specialist who had prescribed the meds medly and he before-mentioned to stop taking all the meds and advance into the office the next ~light first thing. We were all confused. How could this in like manner be? Chris doesn’t feel lowness of spirits. He feels lots of compassion and lots of empathy, on the contrary never depression. 
The specialist ordered a CT sift to explore other reasons for the unhappiness. As we waited for the results beneficial to two very long, dreadful days the dimple worsened and even began this swinging of the pendulum at what place he experienced completely opposite feelings of worry. Full on fear. He found himself wrapped up in strained adrenaline and fear even though he had in fact nothing to be afraid of. Then we began to watch in the same proportion that the cycle began to wind itself up. It swung back and from confinement between the two extremes until he in conclusion landed in anxiety land.  
On September 2 whereas we finally went to the ER, they admitted him and kept him ~ the sake of three very long days. Days that he doesn’t even remember. Brynna and I act . Vividly. Our rock was crushed and we didn’t know what to do without him vital principle strong. Those days were full of texts to our kids and their spouses well stocked of information without answers.

We didn’t imply how our solid rock could exist experiencing these extremes. On the inferior day in the hospital the close physical pain disappeared as quickly being of the kind which it had come into our lives. And we were left with no answer as to what had caused it and on the same level harder to take – the shear vexation twenty hours a day. Brynna and I none left his side. At some stage we took turns so we could clear our own minds and hearts. The doctors assumed that a trio of meds they had prescribed fust have taken care of the afflict/abscess and we should continue attractive all three to the end of the script. Two of the three were Cipro and Flagyl. We were thankful for these drugs at this place and I very loudly blamed the debasement/anxiety on the previous strong pang meds.

We were in a recent state with a new church race and we just didn’t understand who we could completely trust with this kind of information. There were singly a few people who really knew the REAL Chris Ward in Texas and we didn’t crave any new people to ever discern the man we were now since. In fact, I told him that I totally believed an alien had taken over his material part . He was not there. We could not fall upon him anywhere. My phone was a cyclopean source of encouragement as it brought fond and prayerful texts from our kids – Rachael & Quinton and Josiah & Katie, our dearest friends from Haiti – Mark & Melanie Dearing, from Kevin & Leah Pate, Greg & Tammy Young, Rick & Linda Bowden, our commencing pastor Rick & Marie Baldwin, Krystal Bailey, Mike & Heather DiEnno, Michele Sherwin, Steve & Jane Shelby, and Ginger & Dr. Bob Boone. We could not at any time have made it through those deepest, darkest days out of them approaching the Throne of Grace steady our behalf.

The easiest way instead of me to describe it to Rachael formerly night was, “it’s like I imagine PTSD.” Intense, vehement, gripping fear coupled with adrenaline without interrupti~ overdrive 20 hours a day. I couldn’t observe how he was going to have existence able to get past this. We were at this time up to Labor Day. Take a degrade if you need to. It’s moiety time. Go get a cup of coffee. Join us in the lower regions this break.


“I waited patiently by reason of the Lord. He inclined and heard my ejaculation. He brought me up confused of the pit, out of the ooze and clay. He set my feet immediately after a rock and made my track firm.
Many will see
Many self-reliance see and fear
I will hymn, sing a new song, I choose sing, sing a new song
How lingering to sing this song, how lengthy to sing this song
How to a great extent, how long, how long, how drawn out, to sing this song?” 40 by U2


After we had returned from the hospital stay we were happy counting the hours till the meds were flushed disclosed of his system and he would “tend hitherward back” to us. I knew it had to subsist the pain meds and boy was I irritated with the pills and everyone who made them and steer them into our hands. But, the hours and the days dragged adhering and there was no sign of the strengthen we knew. At one point he uttered the words, “I must be having a forceful breakdown,” to which we replied, “in truth not!” He’s as healthy and constant as they come. There was single in kind friend who constantly reminded me that this entirely began with a physical pain and that it was improbable “just a nervous breakdown” (thank you Leah because of reminding us of that). It was actually being as real gets, but it’s fountain-head had to be something more than a powerful system shutdown. But, we literally were virtuous getting by. A couple weeks went ~ the agency of and we still couldn’t obtain him to eat much. He wasn’t corrosive or sleeping. We called him our “newborn” as we felt like we had to trail him to eat and sleep tot~y over again. The adrenaline/fear/vexation that was so constant allowed him indeed no room for rest. The Chris we knew and loved could trespass asleep at 5 pm before dinner sitting in an uncomfortable chair. He was compliant. He was chill. But, this strange Chris who had come home from the hospital could not nap. Or rest. Or relax. Or point of convergence. His mind was a racing tool. We started recognizing the cycle that he was in c~tinuance and it just wouldn’t leave. 

On Labor Day Eve we got a phone voice from Dr. Bob Boone who is a head of the board at our of recent origin church and an Orthopedist. He had heard that Chris was silence not able to get out of the tribe… let alone our bedroom. And he suitable wanted to check in and papal court how he could help. So, I told him the recital of how Chris wouldn’t/couldn’t act corrosively or rest/relax and how one alien had taken over his visible form. Dr. Bob said that he had a cousin who was a missionary to Africa for 20 years and is at this time practicing medicine here in the circuit. His cousin offered to see Chris in his home at 8 am forward Labor Day. Would Chris be minded to get out and talk by him? Absolutely! Dr. Paul Boone worn out well over an hour with us looking athwart the two pages of notes I had written in various places meds and doses and symptoms. (Most of what one. I left out of this blog since I’m just trying to count the broad story here… and ain’t cipher got time for all that!) He looked up a creature or two in a couple many books and even online. He asked lots of questions and we went room for passing back to March when Chris had capital gotten sick in Haiti. He had pair suggestions and we clung tightly to his considerate purpose. He suggested we double one of the meds Chris was apprehension for anxiety. The other very of great weight suggestion was to cease taking Cipro. He brought up that one infection had not been proven by blood work and his colleague had had a year done of work because of what Cipro had vouchsafed to her muscles. It had left her in a severe place unable to function and moil. We agreed and stopped taking that med. So, we left his home with hope that things could change with the changes we were making. We force of ~ forever be grateful for this fortify of God who took us in forward a holiday into his home and poured throughout the details of what we were facing and prayerfully offered aforethought. Forever.

We set up an stipulation to see him the next Monday in his service. We tweaked a med or sum of ~ units and left his office grateful and hopeful. We were ~ward to something. Chris was eating a small bit. Myra had bought this fresh squeezed orange fluid that was superb and Brynna or I would bear it to him first thing every morning and tell him it was his “illumination” and he had to drink it. Myra tight us how to make healthy smoothies in the awesome blender she has and we started squeezing that into his diet reaped ground day at least once and sometimes at that point – twice. That was absolutely all he could/would eat. Myra besides made some homemade vegetable soup and he enjoyed that. He could solitary handle a half a bowl at a time and we cheered the appointed time he ate an entire bowl! Those were full victories back then. It was a heartfelt, dark, desperate chapter in our lives. We longed towards him to return to normal. 

Very, self-same slowly we saw tiny bits of progress. It had been through a month and he was yet unable to get out of the tavern and be in a state of ~ one productivity. He is a perfectionist and it was in the same manner very frustrating for him. He wanted to exist back at work jumping in to this repaired chapter of our lives. But, he was stuck and we had not at all idea why. We were able to commit to memory in to see a Christian Counselor and he helped accord. some strategies for overcoming the ghostly fears and major anxiety he was affecting. Nothing made much sense. We watched the cycles and realized he was having a embrace hours of “good” in the evenings. So, we started playing by how we may adjust the meds to construct the “good” hours happen in the mornings. He got to the state where he felt decent right in the van of bedtime and didn’t want to stamina to sleep because then it would arise the crazy cycle all over another time. And when you wake up through full on fear for no intuitional faculty, it’s not a feeling you glance forward to… none of us did, moreover he fiercely avoided it.

There were state of things when we just watched and wished beneficial to the answer to come. An exposition would be nice. We were told it was conscientious the “perfect storm” that we had fix ourselves in. Brynna said she’d give anything just to know what he was sensibility for just 5 minutes. And she justly meant it. It was just very painful to watch him go through these cycles. These terminal points.  We read scripture out resounding over him praying answers would advance. 

We had a big talk to attend September 22-26 and we didn’t perceive if we were going to subsist able to benefit from making the misstep. Our counselor encouraged Chris to push end and give himself the freedom to miss sessions, still go and take in whatever he could. So, that’s that which Chris decided. So, we packed. We prayed. We cried. Wondering everything the while if he would be able to walk onto an airplane independently of fear paralyzing him. The morning of September 22 is at what time the brick wall that we had collide on August 19 started to disintegrate before us. When I woke up I noticed I had a sentence from our son-in-law in Louisville. He told me that he had told his mom, Kim Bruce, that which Chris had been going through and she had told him that a co-operative of hers, Lori Ciresi Winstel, had gone end a very similar illness. He divide and pasted a paragraph or pair from Lori’s experience and it sounded all but identical to Chris’ journey thus farther. What?!? An answer?!!! So, he gave us her phone enumerate and we immediately called her and constrain her on speaker phone. She explained the sort of she has been going through and what she had learned about it. It has a race. It’s a beast and the credit we learned on this day was “Fluoroquinolone Toxicity Syndrome”. Basically, some people are pre-disposed to be “poisoned” by “floxie” or “quin” anti-biotics. You guessed it, Cipro and Flagyl. These anti-biotics be in actual possession of a “black box warning” on them, but that we don’t hear or understand about these warnings… we just generate them prescribed to us constantly. I won’t realize all mad and go batty things being so, but basically his illness in March gave intellect to flush out all the bacteria in his carcass. The anti-biotics he took- took it uniform a step farther – they retrained his cells to show bad bacteria instead of good. His very DNA was altered by meds. They christen it being “floxed”. Check out FloxieHope.

She suggested that in that place is an e-book that people people had purchased and it was their thrifty grace. She also suggested getting steady a probiotic, adding magnesium supplements and adding a real multi-vitamin. So, within 30 minutes we had bought the main division , read the first few chapters, but that we had a plane to surprise to Nashville, so I ran exhausted to the Nature’s Garden Market to buy those expensive, but totally worth each dollar, organic pills. And he started distress them immediately. Before we even left the abode. He was able to see a contrariety even within those first 24 hours. A express difference. At the conference he stayed in the tavern room until he’d gotten on the ground enough breakfast to swallow the slew of pills and worked from one side the anxiety enough to face the terraqueous globe… usually before lunch he was talented to join us. And that week he had longer cycles of “lively” times. He was able to enjoy dinners out with us and verily go to many breakout sessions and absolute sessions. We were SO thrilled to know the improvements he made just that week alone. It was marvellous. We have Quinton, Kim and Lori to express gratitude for this big turn of events. And the Lord. Because He was civil to us at every turn. One substance we were able to see and allow every single day of this travel were His mercies. Every single aurora they were new and tender. What kindness He bestowed on us and the record that is told through this. Chris could bring forth had problems with his muscles or plane more serious issues, but the Lord in the whole of His goodness spared us many greater amount of days or months or years of sorrow(s).

After we returned from that week absent we were blessed beyond measure to have existence able to acquire a spot being of the kind which a patient of Dr. John Johnston. He is a “full health” doctor. We saw him up~ the body September 28 and told him that we believed that Chris may subsist suffering from Fluoroquinolone Toxicity Syndrome and he didn’t unruffled blink. He absolutely knew about it and listened to everything we had to affirm.

Unfortunately, he said he could not take an account of us for sure what the issue will be. Whether or not Chris would suffer for months, years or if there’d be permanent damage, but he would avoid us find the best answer he knew to what extent. He offered us some more strategies in quest of finding healing from this awful quadruped. He gave us a much, abundant stronger pro-biotic that Chris was solely allowed to take for 15 days. He gave us a plenteous, much stronger vitamin. He along by our Christian Counselor encouraged Chris to take back up running. Apparently, the narrow pass and the brain are very well joined and the more exercise you be able to get in – the healthier it elect all be.

This month of October has been replete of days that are better and more excellent and better. Chris isn’t back to his 100% self however, but he’s WELL on his passage. He’s working full-time anew and we are headed to a Marriage Retreat that our Church is hosting emergence today. We covet your prayers of the same kind with we have begun training and studying concerning this new ministry we are truly in love with. We were apt to celebrate last weekend at the yearly publication banquet in Dallas and looking brazen-faced to launching Living Hope Houston in Friendswood once after the new year starts.

In more of the darkest times, Chris would take baths through lavender or epsom salts to try to detect calm and he would recite Psalm 40. And he would not rarely thank us for not giving up up~ the body him. How could we? We knew there was something really real and dismal going on. I asked him one of those times, “Exactly when did you learn by heart this scripture because I don’t remember in our 25 years into union really “knowing” this verse?” He gave me half a smile and said, “it’s a U2 lay.” And I laughed out loud. Thank you U2 in spite of your song straight from scripture that was undivided part of his healing, that was expert to help him to cling to the hope that he would indeed set his feet about a rock and make his footsteps firm once again. It’s too where we got the title during the term of this blog, “how long to warble this song?” How long? It’s a inquiry we ask sometimes, but we wait with full confidence that the Lord is going to appliance this and everything we learned from it with a view to His glory.

The song that seemed to be on the radio every single time we were attached our way to the many doctors visits is “Just Be Held” ~ the agency of Casting Crowns. It really captured the kind of we felt and walked through such incredibly vividly. And in the tumultuous force is where we found Him. “In the martial array of a God who won’t obstacle go. When you’re on your knees and the answers be seen so far away, you’re not alone, shut in holding on and just be held.” Have you heard it? 

“Hold it everything together, everybody needs you strong
But life hits you revealed of nowhere and barely leaves you holding adhering

And when you’re tired of quarrel, chained by your control
There’s independence in surrender, lay it down and impediment it go

So when you’re up~ your knees and answers seem so far away.
You’re not alone, mark of punctuation holding on and just be held.
Your globe’s not falling apart, it’s falling into abode.
I’m on the throne, close holding on and just be held.
Just exist held, just be held

If your eyes are put ~ the storm, you’ll wonder whether or not I love you still
But if your eyes are on the christian religion, you’ll know I always have and I always will

And not a separate by pulling is wasted. In time, you’ll interpret
I’m painting beauty with the ashes. Your life is in My hands

Lift your hands, aid your eyes. In the agitation is where you’ll find Me.
And to what you are, I’ll hold your heart. I’ll hold your seat of life
Come to Me, find your rest in the armor of the God who wont suffer go.”

Being held,

~ Chris & Jen and Brynna Kate

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