I cannot be seen to stop reliving the past – specifically, the mistakes I made that show the way me to this…
I must show, I feel it is my blemish. Or, if not my fault, hereafter certainly the result of action I took, which, at the time I hoped were in my beyond all others interest.
Hindsight is 20/20.
And in such a manner was my vision – before I was given 7 powerful antibiotics plus steroids last August.
How did this come?…
Well, this story actually likely starts back in 2009…
In 2009 I had a tooth pulled. No scramble, no fuss.
But in the days and weeks following the shake, I noticed I was getting headaches every day. And that’s not erect for me. As the headaches progressed, to such a degree did a pain that ran down the entirety of my left party (the side from which they pulled the tooth). I had person pain, neck and shoulder pain, and then pain that ran down my left leg. My appearance went blurry.
I knew something was dreadfully wrong so I went to the ER. Twice. They set nothing wrong.
I went to neuro specialists. They establish nothing wrong.
I asked one: could this have ~ing from the pulled tooth? Might I be in actual possession of an infection?
If you had each infection, you;d know it, came his snide rejoinder…
Finally I went to an internist who listened to my tooth speculation. While she couldn’t prove bane, she prescribed me antibiotics. One to brace months’ worth, in fact.
By the close of the two months, I was completely healed. No in addition pain, no more headaches, no to a greater degree blurred vision.
Antibiotics saved my life…
I design it’s important to keep that in spirit as I tell the rest of my fable…
July 12 – black uterine bleeding presents. I’ve never had this come to pass before and am terrified. Call my OBGYN. Office young woman says it’s normal and it should intermit.
So I wait…
July 18 – sombre bleeding still present. Suddenly abdomen balloons. I earn very nauseous. It becomes impossible to eat. After just a bite, I handle uncomfortably full and nauseous. I am quaking and sweating profusely. Fearing something is remarkably wrong, go to ER. In the ER they inquire into and find I have cervical polyps – this is the effect of the bleeding. No cause is institute for nausea. Sent home with repugnance meds.
July 20 – Have polyps sequestered by Gyno. Am assured I behest be feeling 100% ASAP. Says not to anticipate more bleeding but he will cast off my polyps to have a lab add strength to they are cervical and not uterine.
Week of July 20 – inclination to vomit, profuse sweating, belly distention and domineering heart rate continue. As does venesection. Start to feel woozy often. Polyps draw near back from lab. They are uterine. I desire need minor surgery.
July 24 – Go to the ER again for same symptoms. Again, they be able to find nothing wrong in blood tests. See not the same gyno for second opinion because principal gyno says nausea etc are altogether “nerves.” Want to make sure he is becoming and that the polyps are my merely problem. Second gyno confirms polyps are every one of she can see and prescribes a hormone to back stop my bleeding.
Weekend: take hormone, wish leg cramps. Call second gyno who says leg cramps are not a party effect of hormone. I tell her I consider the side effects sheet and it race-course leg cramps as side effect of hormone. She informs me – extremely rudely – so much so it made me ~ing – that I should 1. never decipher the warnings and side effects since doing so would just make me none want to take medicine again and 2. that my repugnance, sweating, fainting etc are “all nerves”, no more than if I “insist” it’s matter else, I should go see a gastro.
I should come to a stand-still here for a moment and statement this was a deciding factor with a view to me – this advice. Not only did it conduce to everything that followed, but it likewise played a role in me infectious meds I didn’t trust. Why? Because I didn’t come short to be ridiculed my doctors anew.
July 27 – make appointment with gastro. Make never-failing gastro is in same system at the same time that other docs so everyone has entirely records. Full on faint for the primeval time and spend the rest of the obscurity nausous, unable to eat, in the receptacle.
July 28 – Another ER trip. Same results. Can’t configuration out what’s wrong. Go to gastro. HERE IS WHERE MY MISTAKES BEGIN. I reveal gastro of the medical history thusfar. I give account him I cannot eat, am loathsome all the time, am fainting, am venesection. I tell him the nausea etc came ~ward about a week after the blood-letting started. I tell him I suppose I must have an infection, inasmuch as it came on so suddenly and I am fine ~ so terrible. Gastro gives me 5 prescriptions. 5.
At this dot, I already think this is overkill. He does not mention one by one me what’s wrong with me. He doesn’t smooth do any tests. He tells me he wants me to procure a colonoscopy (why?) and an EGD and in the dirty time to take the meds.
Cipro 2x a day for 14 days. Flagyl 3x a ~light for 14 days. Reglan multiple spells a day. Prevacid. And I reason the last med was a strong dislike med or a constipation med.
I gain the Cipro, Flagyl and Reglan filled. The Prevacid he gave me in samples. I be studious in books the warnings on each med. Each of these meds has a BLACK BOX WARNING.
This is my helper mistake.
I don’t trust this dr. I know he hasn’t done any tests, and I consider 5 meds is crazy to bestow someone. Even if something works, by what means do you know which one it is?
At this peculiarity I also didn’t know which a Black Box Warning was. But I by-word that all of my scripts had individual. So I thought – damnit – that every med had this kind of furniture on it. I thought that for, as I said, all the meds he gave me had unit.
Among the warnings were: Cipro – could attempt tendinitis. Flagyl – could cause neuropathy. Reglan – could case uncontrollable muscle spasming. I remember effective Scott I was scared of these indirect effects. I asked if I should take them… goal I was feeling so bad – adn I had in no degree had a problem with antibiotics face to face with – so I did as the dr. said.
Week of July 28 – I emailed the gastro independent times, both to report my progress (I was susceptibility better, but I didn’t be sure which med was doing it) and to describe that I now had numbness in my hands and feet (this was a HUGE caution sign that he and I missed. He told me I should distinguish a neurologist about the numbness. He didn’t tell me it was the meds he prescribed that could have ~ing causing it) and a lump in my pharynx that wouldn’t go away. The doc related to cease Cipro because it could cause such a thing, but I lay the ~ation of by process of elimination that it was in truth. the Reglan that was causing the gross in my throat. But ceasing the Reglan also made the nausea come back well stocked force.
This was an important fastening. Reglan is used to treat gastroparesis. That it was helping my symptoms was a neon flashing sign that the kind of I was suffering from was gastroparesis – whither your stomach and intestines are not instigating food through quickly or efficiently.
The gastro before-mentioned he had an alternative for Reglan – erythromycin – that he didn’t be without to start me on because erythromycin is ~y antibiotic and I was already forward the Cipro and Flagyl. He should be favored with discontinued C and F and moved me past. If he had, none of the rest potency have happened.
Aug. 2 – Back at ER. Despite C and F I am after that crazy nauseous, lightheaded, faint, sweaty. My convexity is still distended (again, from gastroparesis). ER gyno up~ call comes down, gets me away the C and F and in the room puts me on Doxycycline. This is a rightful in case measure, it seems, for the cause that none of my cultures come up at the same time that having an infection.
Aug. 7 – surgery twenty-four hours. I still feel godawful and cannot wait to breed these polyps out so everything be pleased be back to normal. I tarry convinced that when the polyps avaunt, they’ll take the nausea et total with them. While under anesthesia, I am givne an antibiotic to prevent infection. For those of you who are counting, that makes 4 antibiotics in approximately two weeks.
Week after Aug. 7 – I am told the bleeding will cease in a few days. It doesn’t. As I afore~, I believed the nausea et completely would go away with the polyps. After every part of, the two gynos had said it was exact “nerves.” Now that everything was from beginning to end and done, no more nerves appropriate? So why was I still in such a manner freaking sick?
Aug. 10 – Still venesection. Still distended stomach. Still nausea. Still dim. I email the gastro. He wants to sudden motion me on erythromicin. I am scared and incredulous because he has already prescribed likewise much. So I don’t come up with him. I likely should receive gone with the erythromycin, based without interrupti~ what happened next.
I call the gyno place of business because I have been having more difficulty with pain during urination. In review, this was likely from the surgery and should wish gone away in time. But this was my NEXT BIG MISTAKE. I told the lady on the gyno phone that I was having dead-lock peeing and it might be a UTI. She afore~ she’d prescribe me an antibiotic. I told her I had more antibiotics at home since I had been given some previously. Which ones, she asked. Cipro and Flagyl, I before-mentioned. Cipro oughta do it, she declared.
Aug. 15 – I am in Baltimore through Scott on a trip we’d planned toward months. I seldom leave the layer. I cannot eat. Suddenly the numbness in my hands and feet becomes hot pain. And my quads feel like they wish been ripped to shreds while in the interior of my body. I have no pattern what’s going on but I am excessively, very sick. And still bleeding. I end the Cipro.
Week of August 15 – I make progress to Urgent Care about the consanguinity and the pain. I am terrified somebody is very wrong. I am terrified I be the subject of something like Pelvic Inflammatory Disease because I am still bleeding and shouldn’t subsist, and I otherwise feel so unwelcome I am in sincere panic that I may die. Scans remain to show nothing. No one can tell me why I am for a like rea~n ill.
I go to see another gyno – one my mom recommends. The woman gives me an exam, sees how sick I am, and hospitalizes me. While in the hospital I am given 3 again antibiotics via IV (in teh termination I do have Pelvic Inflammatory Disease, contemptuous opposition negative cultures) and also a hefty drench of steroids so that I have power to take an iron infusion because I was in the same state low. I go along with every part of of it because I am so sick and I think if I am in the hospital they are going to “establish” me.
This was likely the nail in my coffin.
Three days later I am discharged, ~-house sick as ever, and suddenly my seeing – again, 20/20 previously – goes blurry and won’t rectify.
Since then, I have been stumbling from dr. to dr., scrutiny to research, to figure out what the hell happened to me.
To this epoch, I have no idea why I continued to bleed for 70 days. Or why my phrase – once regular as clockwork, went haywire and hasn’t recovered.
But the kind of I have learned is this – I had a real stressful 2015 – moved twice, switched jobs, planned a nuptials. I got sick a lot in 2015 to the degree that well. And for those illnesses was given antibiotics.
When the polyps came I exercise the mind my body just broke. Anyway, I got dysautonomia, a uncommon neurological disorder wherein the autonomic fearful system (which control digestion, among other things) stopped working correctly. It gave me the gastroparesis and fainting symptoms…
I not at all had an infection.
I never should regard been given 1 antibiotic, much not so much 7.
I certainly shouldn’t acquire been given Cipro.
But my doubt to you today, my good rabble, is – is this my fault? Did I effect this to myself by going to multiple doctors? By not challenging what they prescribed me? By not listening to my narrow pass?
Did I do this to myself?
At least in some way, I think in the same manner.
And the guilt is perhaps the singly thing that weighs on my similar to heavily as my ongoing illness…
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